Ranting to relieve oneself

Bridesmaid corsages

2012-01-26T20:01:00.002+08:00

I have been painstaking sew the 10 lace flowers the past weeks when I realized it might not be enough. :p my three sisters, sis in law, my nieces, mom, my bridesmaids and I don't know how else will be there. Mostly my aunts and uncles helping out in the event lah

Just in case not to hurt anyone's feeling on that day, it's better make more. Right?!

Money matters

2012-01-26T19:50:00.001+08:00

No matter how much you owe, you must find ways to pay them back.
I guess that is my philosophy in Hutang-piutang ni.

I really hate to be in debt. Seriously wedding is taking a huge role in my monthly salary. And with my please-end-it braces, I don't like the feeling of owing someone money. I have a few more sessions with my dentist and soon my teeth can see the light. Lol!

Money is a very sticky issue. Don't you think so.

Hantaran tak nak, boleh?

2012-01-04T15:37:00.000+08:00

Dear and me had decided long before that we do not want any dulang as to save $$$ and also making our event much simpler. Nothing fancy. Sadly.... sob sob... we are unable to convince his mom. This is their first 'BIGGEST' family event so soon-to-be mom-in-law wants dulang to compliment the mas kahwin and his ring dulang.

Pictures courtesy of Google

for all you know, me and him are crying out loud inside. =''( We have to fork out more money just to please her. Nevermind lah. As long as she is happy.

haizzz....

7th year

2012-01-01T12:06:00.000+08:00

7th year to our relationship and less than a year to the BIGGEST day in our life. Me and him doesn't need a fancy anniversary event or gift coz we need to use our money for D-Day.

So on Sunday, 1 January 2012, for the first time we celebrate our anniversary on its date. LOL. Our previous anniversaries, we either don't celebrate coz of his work schedule or we celebrate a week after. Thankfully, this time we get to be together. hehehe..

Nothing special, just us eating at Newton Food Centre.

As usual, BBQ stingray and Seafood Tom Yam.

Gosh, I can do this at home like 5 times cheaper. But someone just had cravings for it. argh... takpe, anniversary punya pasal kan.

Yeay! Checked!

2011-12-27T09:52:00.002+08:00

I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooo GLAD that the HUGE part of the wedding are CHECKED!

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3 most important things for a wedding (From my point of view)

One: Caterer - Must quickly find coz the good ones are always FULLY booked a year or two before. And it is important to get our parents involved in this part coz they went to more wedding events than us. LOL!

Two: Decor - If your caterer comes with decor, thats good. But if its not, you have to find one before you left with the expensive ones. hehe.. Affordable and pretty are fast gone too!

Three: Bridal - There are alot of bridal house in Singapore but it is best to survey and research a few places before settling on one. Get your sisters or girlfriends to go around with you. They may have a different opinion on which is nice but they will be a good advice for a good price for your budget.

And on top of all this, BUDGET. Yup, you may want to have the best of everything but you don't want to end of having credit balance after the wedding.

Its been 6 months.

2011-12-06T10:49:00.003+08:00

tick tock tick tock.... I'm already engaged for half a year! wow.. time do flies. I was checking through my lonely blog from my iPhone yesterday and saw the timeline.

311 days left as of today. Crazy! aahhhh....

Didn't manage to take a close-up picture of my engagement ring that day (which is 6months back? lol) So how did we decided to go with a simple GOLD ring? Well, Shari and me with my mother went to search for engagement ring and all the Diamond ring couldn't fit my size and we have to book with the Jewelry shop and come back again. We didn't have time to come back again so my mum keeps insisted to go with GOLD (coz she likes it). -.-

Oh, me on the other hand, has no obligation of what kind of ring I want as I don't wear jewelry or accessories. So I don't know what suits me. Mum said to just go with 'belah rotan'. She said its simple, cheap and DURABLE! (mark that down ladies... lol) Mum said this is just a 'tanda' so don't need to be so fancy. =)

Bridesmaid Corsage

2011-11-30T15:24:00.006+08:00

Been researching on simple fabric corsage that I can make for my family and bridesmaid. There are many kinds but there's one which I was looking for. I wanted fabric and net mixture.

Found this. Some what close to what I want to make. She even uploaded tutorial for it. I can't wait to try it!

Flower corsage

Left alone

2011-11-28T21:46:00.001+08:00

For some reasons, I know their spending habits. And when it come to me, I don't really get the best of both worlds. My family don't celebrate any of our birthdays. We couldn't afford to do so. They, on the other hand, will spend a huge amount every year.

Other reasons I want to leave are obviously because I don't understand why I should be the one reminding him of his 'kewajiban'. If man are told to choose a religious woman when he wants to get married, why isn't it the same for a woman?

Make my feet pretty, please!

2011-11-28T14:12:00.003+08:00

I know I should NOT be updating my blog at this time.. ssshhhh.. hehehe..

There's a shoe shop at NEX Serangoon facing Maybank and Bus interchange. I fell in love with the wedding shoes which I have been eyeing for. I've always wanted a simple covered shoes for my wedding because of my right foot toes. =( Its alien looking!

Well... Most importantly is the price right? Its less than $50! Affordable ladies!

Anyway, I was browsing through Ms Google for some inspiration. See if I could add anything to the shoe. Lace, ribbon or shiny crystal beads.

I like the gold details on the shoes and cute flower.

This is my favourite! Lace, beading and ribbon at the back!

I like the contrast of crystal clear heels to its full crystals!

Cute right? Black details and ribbon at the back.

First Pearl hand bouquet

2011-11-24T10:59:00.007+08:00

I was anxious to know how a pearl hand bouquet would turn out. Without much thinking, I went to Chinatown to buy the pearls. Sadly, they don't have the off-white colour pearl that I want. Bought shiny white pearls and crystals instead. Not forgetting the wires to tie the pearls too. Saw satin ribbons. Bought that too! hehehe..

And here's the outcome!

My sis insisted to take a picture of the pearls as I didn't took a photo when I'm doing the first one.

The second bouquet is 400pearls. Kak yah took this photo. Cantik kan!

He asked me to accompany him (and his sister, and Aunt and Mum) to a wedding invitation which is at JB. I didn't manage to buy any gift for the couple so I gave the bride my 2nd successful Pearl bouquet. hehehe... And of coz lah, I gave her some RMRMRM.. hehehe..

I hope she likes it. =)

Wonder Mums!

2011-11-22T10:44:00.000+08:00

I stumped upon this video while looking for the dance cover. I didn't know korean mums semangat gila! Look at their energy and sharp moves. Power sey.. Enjoy people!

OVER finally!

2011-11-20T10:23:00.006+08:00

After September holidays, Rabiah and me have been rehearsing (macam orang gila) with the children. We plus minus all the holidays, exam week, school events, we realized we do not have enough time to train the kids. We planned our rehearsal schedule in such a way they do not clash with any other programmes in school.

P1 - during Modular CCA, Tuesday @ 7.30 to 9am
P2 - Every Tuesday after school, 2pm to 3.30pm
P5 - Every Friday after school. (These last for 3 weeks only coz of exams) =(

Our little Hip Hoppers!

Rock n Rolling with P1s!

P5 Bhangra..

Day before our first All-in rehearsal, we were so nervous. We have not completed the dance and yet we still have to showcase to them. But somehow someway, we relaxed and with the school exams end, we are able to take the kids during their curriculum. I guessed the children slacked after they have danced on stage. They were not cooperative when we spot mistakes and adjust the choreograph. Hmmm.. they are still kids right?

Two weeks before the actual day, I rushed to complete the design and send for approval. I have to quickly finish the design for other parts too! which were Certificates, Programme Booklet, PowerPoint Slides... ahhh.. everything was just crazy.. VP keeps bugging me to print the VIP cards.. =( mcm orang kahwin card lah.. haizz.. With the flying butterfly dia.. macam macam...

for VIPs

Parents (I printed like 200 of those!!)

And for that 2 weeks, I have been clocking off at 6pm!! Selamat Saturday tutup, if not I will come back just to complete my work.

And now that it is over... Alhamdulillah!

Its so funny how I don't even have a background in dancing, is choreographing for the kids. Seriously..... AMAZING! hahahaha..

Wonder Girls are back!

2011-11-10T15:40:00.008+08:00

Totally exhilarated when I heard WG will make their comeback.. Wonder Girls are the one that exposed the world to Kpop when their Nobody song hits US Billboard Chart. Love their latest song and dance. And I had them on repeat!! ~please be my baby...

P.B.M

2011-10-29T10:47:00.004+08:00

Perangai Budak Malas hari ni ada semangat sikit. hehe.. I moved in my sister's house 4 months back. Today I feel I should not waste time and change the address on my IC. 0.0 banyak nya cepat eh.. hehehe..

No one wants to accompany me so I went to ICA myself. Before I could do so, I must surrendered my lost (found) ID. Reluctantly give that card to the lady at the counter... I missed that silly picture of me when I made my first IC.

Dropped by Chinatown to buy the pearls to make bouquet for my dear Marina. It stated in the website exit A. I exited and lost. Coz the building I exited to see People's Park Complex when I'm supposed to go People's Park Centre. Looked at the map (People's Park Centre not stated inside... -.-) for 5 mins and try to figure out my location. Argh.. Me bad in navigating so I had to walk around to see if I can find the shopping mall myself before asking around. Thank goodness, its on the same lane!

The craft store is located at 2nd level but nowhere in sight. I walked every corner and found it at the last corner. PENAT! I really love craft store. I stayed there for quite sometime to look at the things they have, before I made my payment. =P

I was too excited that I try making one in the train. hahahaha... Thankfully, Mirah and Dayah helps me at make the bouquet at home. I hope it will turn out well. =) Can't wait to see the end result!

Handmade bouquet

2011-10-28T14:30:00.008+08:00

My mind is not settled. Obviously! There are too many things need to be think but I'm sure after December, the real life monsoon will come. To date, its less than a year to my Big Day. Recently, I have been looking into making a hand bouquet for my dearest Marina. She's getting married 4 months before me which is in June. Yup! I'm uber excited for her and myself! hehehe

Instead of completing the Annual Prize Giving Day theme, here I am Google-ing and searching for ways to create a pretty bouquet for her. Just like below,

Oh Dear Photography

ProjectWedding

Our first visit to Ben and Jerry's

2011-10-27T20:46:00.000+08:00

After in denial for quite some time (5 months to be exact..I'm still in denial) Hahahaha.. I decided (like finally you did Siti!) to go for my braces appointment again. According to the dentist, I can remove it as long as I keep using that packet(s) of mini transparent rubberband to close up the gap in-between my tooth. It's not that I don't want to use it, but i seriously can't chew my food coz it's painful. Argh!!

After which, we went in search for the shiny turquoise string which Datin wants. It's for VIPs (only)! -.- it took me more than 3 months to get the theme design she's been 'dreaming' of. Lol.. I don't know ArtFriend has another branch at Ngee Ann city (Takashimaya) level 4. Unfortunately, they have limited variety of strings for me to choose. No shiny shiny ones that she has been eyeing. I have no choice but to go down Plaza Sing and thank goodness, Spotlight has it. It's actually for knitting. Tak kisah, yang penting Datin happy.. Tul tak? Hehe..

And since we were near his workplace, he 'promoted' me the discounted shoes (coz I have been blabbering about not having a dancing shoes when I'm teaching the kids for year end performance.. Lol). After staff discount, my budget is $50. He showed me the shoes that were on sale (yes! Yang penting SALE eh) I really love the blue/pink (the one Katy Perry wears in the poster) but it exceeded my budget. So I just went ahead with the black/purple. Of coz I still love it too!

Dear finally suggested to go Ben and Jerry using the voucher he got from his customer. (Thank you to whoever you are.. You have made our date end nicer.. Lol). THIS IS our Virgin visit and my first time eating ben and jerrys ice cream. Exhilarated habis...... We chose Double Brownie Special which cost $14.90. Macam biasa budget! We don't want to top up too much with only $10 voucher. For this, you are allowed to choose 2 scoops of ice cream. We picked strawberry cheesecake and new York chunks. The brownie was very sweet and chewy. I ate only 2 spoonful and gave up coz it stuck onto my teeth and + the braces = I took more time clearing them than enjoying the ice cream. Maybe next time we should eat the waffle instead. :)

BB: Bride's Blog

2011-08-15T16:10:00.002+08:00

been Google-ing more often recently to get inspiration for my wedding and oopss... I stumped upon brides-to-be blogs. They are mostly malaysian. I guessed Singaporean are just too do so. I will update with their links soon.

in a heartbeat...

2011-08-10T11:45:00.004+08:00

its been a while the last time I update. I wonder if anyone is still reading. I guessed, not. hehe... Today is school holiday due to National Day yesterday and what the hell am I doing here in school? hahaha.. On Monday, I thought the school is closed so I don't need to come. Extra two days of holidays after weekend is over, who doesn't want it. Unfortunately, my dearest HOD sms me last night saying I can come at 8am instead of 7.30am.. *mak pekik oi lepas baca msg tu. TERpaksa datang lor.. Anyway, at least I get to complete part of overpiling workload. LOL...

So what had happened the past three.. four.. months. hmmm.. Many things.. seriously.. I can't write every single one of them here. Tak balik rumah lah.. hahaha.. Those which has an impact in my life?

1) Engagement. yup.. finally after soooooooooooooooo long, we decided to settle down for something more serious and a whole lot more ~~burden~~ responsibility added to our life. =)

more photos, next time k!

2) family matters, no one wants to be in. Keeping calm and be on our toes to help one another will make matters better.

Pms

2011-03-10T21:07:00.001+08:00

I just realize my habit when I have mensus..

3 times hungry than usual before mensus.

2 times hungry than usual on the first few days. Ate alot in the morning and lost appetite for dinner.

Relieved!

2011-02-27T14:09:00.004+08:00

Like finally I have completed paying off CPF Education Loan. I paid by cash ok!

I'm bloody damn relieved!!!!!!!! No more loans!

Gifts for everyone!

2011-02-12T08:11:00.001+08:00

That is my aim for this year.

I was not good giver last year and I have always been the receiving end.

Go Siti Hajar!! Fighting!

Aftermath

2011-02-01T20:19:00.001+08:00

The first class 4dolphin was a big mess. Half of the class can't do what it has been told. I was screaming and their mistakes after mistakes really hit my nerves! Ok, now I'm feeling bad for being mad at them just now. Seriously! Maybe I should make up the scolding for something better next week. Miss Siti is super sorry! Haizzz..

I have said this to myself many times and I have to said it again. "I really hate myself when I'm angry!"

3rd week is my 1st week

2011-01-20T13:15:00.003+08:00

I think I will go crazy repeating the cyberwellness for the 10th times this week.

Thank you Mrs Lai! She is super sweet lah. Her class didn't bring their bags eventhough ICT is their last lesson for today. I have 3 worksheets for them to do. Since they did not bring their pencil box, Mrs Lai said she will let her children complete them in their classroom instead. When I told her that I might need to mark them, she said she will help me as its easy.. LOL!! Thank U again Mrs Lai!

So two of my classes ended early today! Felt lost... hahaha.. Next week will be the start of our crazy week as the kids will be using the computers. Oh my.. I need to quickly get over with my lesson plan.

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Been thinking what should I do with my life. When I was 18, I have thoughts of my plans in 20s. My aim was to get a child by 25 and 3 children by 30. Oh man, I'm 24 this year. Not sure if I could complete my life's mission.
My 2nd mission was to visit all Asia countries by 30! I have only visited like 2 countries? haizzzz... Bila dapat travel lagi ni!!

Missing

2011-01-17T00:03:00.001+08:00

I'm sleepy. Why doesn't he picks up the calls?

I need to throw up!

2011-01-15T19:54:00.001+08:00

Seriously, I'm tearing now and thinking of running away to hid and cry my heart out. I have kept them too long..

aint nothing better..

2011-01-03T10:55:00.005+08:00

Not sure if there is still people reading my blog.. Seriously, after reading back my post, I know my words are little harsh.. ok, its very harsh. I admit it. But where else can I say all this.. who wants to listen to someone complaining bad about someone close to her. It just put me in a spot.

ok.. I don't want to think of it.. Anyway, I watched Neyo - One in a Million MV more than a month ago when the views were only hundred thousand. Heard this song on Class 95 just now and remind me of the video.. Watch it again and now the views is already 20 Million! OMG...
I love the dance in this song.. smoooooth and cute!

From vp desk

2010-12-31T10:18:00.000+08:00

Came back to school on Friday and Cik Faizah said Mdm Lela called for me. I really knew this must be something got to do with next year. Little did I know and expected, to receive this sweet little gift from Mdm lela! She loves details, look at the blue ribbon tied nicely, complete with curls.. I like that! Anyway, more work comes together with the chocolates. hehe..

Teachers are back!

2010-12-29T09:47:00.001+08:00

I design it, I got it! Lol.. So weird to receive something you design back again..

End of 2010

2010-12-29T01:30:00.001+08:00

I don't want to celebrate any anniversaries, can? Not in the mood.  anyway, I have told him beforehand, hope he remembers.. I just don't want to waste money..

I thought that someone would be thrifty but it doesn't seems to be that way after so many years.. Hah! Sorry.. Do I need to teach a man to save his money? Come on! Don't be ridiculous! I had enough of my financial difficulties, don't think you need to add to it..

Why do I have to be a 'good person' and just bear with all those nonsense? Can I drink, smoke and go clubbing..? Of coz, typical reaction from people.. 'dulu baik pakai tudung, sekarang dah wild'.. Impression.. Impression and impression of people.. Whatever!

I hate this part right here

2010-12-04T06:25:00.002+08:00

I'm disappointed! Upset, mad! I have been holding onto my tears for so damn long! How can one not pick up the phone when I called 40 times!! I was awake at 5 today, bathe and was getting ready to go and get the tags which will prioritize first 1000 people in line. I badly want to stand near the stage and see them clearly. Because the tag is given one to one, I can't afford to just go myself and left him behind without the tag. I decided to ignore my wants.

:'( I feel like killing myself! I paid for the tickets but I'm not appreciated. No one wants to go with me.

F**k everyone!

Seriously, I'm so sick of my life being this way! Always have to please others. I always have to put away my pride and my dignity for the person to feel better. Bloody hell always get angry for no apparent reason and I have to bear with it.

Super Show 3 adds 2nd show!

2010-12-03T13:28:00.004+08:00

Ahhh.. I missed the selling of tickets last 2 weeks and how can I not missed the second show they agreed on doing for Singapore fans! ahhh.. The tickets will be sell on 6 December which is on Monday..

I want to go.. I want to go!!! Please...!!

No company, no lunch

2010-11-30T15:09:00.003+08:00

ok, this sound pretty bad but I seriously have not eaten breakfast and lunch for 3 days! Thankfully, my tummy doesn't go against me and patience with my unreasonable eating habits at times.
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I'm so hungry right now, seriously! but no one is going to accompany me, so here I am stuffing myself with snacks.... 1 more hour dear tummy and you will get a feast!

Delightful December

2010-11-30T08:09:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be the start of the last month in the year 2010!

Oh my goodness, time do flies! please slow down.. I still want to enjoy my 23th year before I move on to the next number.

This year December is nothing better than other years I have been on earth.. (like real ahh..) you want to know why. Say WHY? Good! Let me list down for you... (there will be lots of 'the first time in my life, so bear with it!')

4 December 2010 - MNET Ultimate Live in Asia (Singapore). I will be seeing my 2PM~! Yeaa.. Ticket price was crazy! $188 x2! yaa.. You can imagine my bank balance just went down like waterfall. This will also be the first time in my life I went to a concert and MOSHPITing! lol.. And the first time in my life I am paying for 2 tickets which cost like a bomb and no one wants to accompany me. (I am really crying inside!)

11 December to 15 December 2010 - Trip to Jakarta: This will be the first time in my life I am boarding a PLANE! Yeaaa.. NO! Actually, I was saving for my first time boarding the plane experience either to SEOUL/HONGKONG. Just some people.. soommeee people.... don't understand the meaning of, 'Jangan sembarang decided untuk orang lain! Orang tak cakap kan!' And the tickets have alsready been booked, I have no choice. STOoooPID! *knock myself on the head! I hate the 'no choice' decision!

20 December 2010 - Sung Joong Ki is coming to Singapore! Hoooooraaayyy..!! I badly want to see him! Like seriously! I have been jumping, laughing and smiling in front of my comp or tv while watching him on Sungkyunkwan Scandal. I LOVE his SMILE! Caaaiirrr babe!!! Kalu abang Ninja datang, double the Power!!! (aahh.. semalam dia angguk pakai mata!! ohhh tidaaakk.... I tak boleh angsss..)

Taeyang has a 'girl'

2010-11-29T09:14:00.003+08:00

Oh my...! How can I not missed Taeyang performance yesterday! But what is more interesting or should I say 'makes me jealous' is..... aaahhh.. i can't accept this.. I can't even say it out.. As a Fangirl, I should just congratulate him... right?

aahh.. oh noo.. i can't!

My 1st Watch! (Paid with my own $$)

2010-11-26T15:33:00.002+08:00

I have been eyeing on this Fossil watch with the white straps for months. I visited the Fossil shop @ 313 for two times and I only looked at it.

So today marks the day!!

Went down to Orchard straight after work, to watch Se7en perform @ Mandarin Gallery which should be starting at 7! (But it didn't) Walked around 313 while waiting for the time to pass (reached Somerset MRT at 5.45pm), I was too early for it. Stopby @ the Fossil store (3rd time) to see if the watch with white straps is still there.

I almost wanted to cry, its GONE for good! -.= I should have bought it the last time I saw it. Anyway, I didn't want to lose it this time, I bought a similar watch but its with black straps instead. I have to own it!

I didn't know we can choose our own box! =)

Love the back design of the straps

Here it is..! =)

ok, my hand is small, so cannot see the straps. =p

Burned: $155

Thank U to you too!

2010-11-25T15:08:00.000+08:00

I don't why but teachers loves to return the favours by surprising me with foods on my table! In any case, I LOVE IT!

this time around is so much special because its from our musical director. seriously, i don't expect anything from her. She has spent quite an amount for this musical.

Our musical director: Mrs Nadira Khan. Isn't she sweet?

Wanted Ms Chew Ting Zhen!

2010-11-25T13:58:00.002+08:00

Ting zhen, if you are reading this, SMS me please.. I just change my phone and lost all my contact again! Missing you badly!

5 Friends Every Woman Should Have

2010-11-25T13:06:00.001+08:00

Found this article from Oprah quite interesting!

By Michelle BurfordO, The Oprah Magazine

"Friends are the family we choose for ourselves," writer Edna Buchanan once said. I consider the "family" I've gathered—with five kinds of pals I count on for completely different things—among the wisest choices I've made. If you can find even one who embodies any of the characteristics that follow, you can consider yourself fortunate.

1. The Uplifter
This woman's favorite word: yes. You could tell her you're trading your six-figure income for a career in offtrack betting, and she'd barely pause before yelping "Go for it!" Don't you need someone who looks past the love handles to notice the extraordinarily gorgeous you?

2. The Travel Buddy
When the hotel in St. Lucia is a bust, one characteristic becomes all-important: flexibility. This agreeable companion need not be the girl you traded pinkie swears with on the playground; it's enough that she's comfortable with quiet (between gabfests) and is a teensy bit mischievous (as in tequila after midnight).

3. The Truth Teller
Intent is what separates the constructive from the abusive. Once you've established that the hard news is spoken in love (not in jealousy or malice), you'd be smart to seek out this woman's perspective.

4. The Girl Who Just Wants to Have Fun
One Saturday a pal and I—and yes, we're both over age 12—pored over every glitter lip gloss in a drugstore aisle for an entire 45 minutes. Forget the crisis download (for that, see the Uplifter); this partnership is about spontaneous good times.

5. The Unlikely Friend
"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive," Anaïs Nin wrote. My friends—some twice my age, others half, some rich, others homeless, some black like me, others Korean, Mexican, Caucasian—have added richness to my life that only variety can bring.

BEAST - 'Beautiful' Teaser

2010-11-24T09:24:00.000+08:00

aahhh.. love this B2ST song so much more than their previous, 'Breath'. And I have one that I like in mind.. muahahaha.. Love his hair!..

Desperation

2010-11-23T07:34:00.003+08:00

What a 'dengki' parents I have! I'm sorry but how can u just left the iron board outside and kept the iron in your room. It's obvious I can't enter your so called heaven place, so pandai pandai letak kat luar. All my hijab are folded and needs to be iron before I put on. I'm sure you also can't wear crumpled clothing to work. Selfish people! I desperately find my sister's top which has already iron and too bad, I need to wear a shawl thou I hate it because all my hijab are folded! Idiot! Yesterday night was already painful, don't add lah!

2010-11-21T21:01:00.001+08:00

Wait! One of them turns out well.. Yeaaa success!

Caramel pudding

2010-11-21T18:48:00.001+08:00

It supposed to work but someone just keep saying her oven will explode if I bake using glass ware. This is where chemistry comes in. I thought glass is created at a very high temperature when it is still in liquid state, which is most probably more than my 180degrees celcius right? Haaaa... So my pudding is half bake now and though it taste nice, I'm gonna throw it away.

Messy Sunday just like my hair

2010-11-21T10:53:00.002+08:00

Ok! I'm so glad I can rant on my blog again but this time I don't need to turn on my computer. Hehehe.. Love my hair every morning... lol that's random!

Little gumbi is here

2010-11-20T22:02:00.001+08:00

Lazy Saturday

2010-11-20T08:19:00.001+08:00

On my bed now and trying out this new application to post on my blog using my phone. I wonder if my 6 years of relationship is still the same. Well definitely not! What my favourite gf told me before seems true in a sense. People do change! Even me. Before, he never left mr behind, now we are walking 3 to 4 meters away. I am always far back. Many times I felt like crying when it happens but there's no one going to comfort me. I keep saying to myself, it's ok. Just bear with it. Don't get angry. Don't cry! You lost if you do it. I don't know if this is going to happen to me forever.

my life, their life now..

2010-10-22T08:15:00.002+08:00

Kim Junsu, Nickhun, Ok Taecyeon, Jung Wooyoung, Lee Junho, Hwang ChangSung... 2 P M Go!
Been repeating this in my head..

At times, I thought my life is one crazy ride. Never had enough of the things happening at home. Try my best to minimize the heat of sickness towards my parents and concentrate on making the house better for my sisters to study. Why such things must happen at times like this. Kesian adik..

So many nights I can't sleep well. Keep thinking of what is going to happen in the future. my future seems dark.. I don't even have an idea of when I can go to the next stage of my life. I thought I could get married by 25. Now it seems totally blurred. Things around me doesn't seems to be working really well.

I need someone out there to assure me that my sisters are going to be fine. But each time I think of having a house of my own and building my own family, I can't helping thinking what my sisters are going to eat today, is there enough food on the table. My parents don't bother about us anymore. My brother and kakak have their own family to take care of. Left me to take care of them.

I felt the responsibility and how important it is I make sure they study well and married off to a religious, responsible man.

They are back!

2010-10-17T12:45:00.002+08:00

when I watch the teaser for their comeback.. I knew i'm going crazy soon..

And yes they are back last thursday.. love their 'running man' dance moves.. keep doing it where ever I go.. hahaha...

2pm - I'll be back!

2010-10-06T16:41:00.005+08:00

Spending seems to be the only way to keep me happy now.. =(

Missing my 2 M in school.. Marina and Michelle..

Both are away but one will come back next year.. Michelle will only be back 2 years later.. Not sure if I would still be here. I don't know what I want to be in years to come.

I thought things would work out after 2 weeks or so. But it doesn't seem that way. Well, I have to quickly wake up and move on since the other party don't look like going to do anything.

I badly need a new phone but I don't know how.. ='( Rabiah has changed her phone to iphone.

Ting Zhen, please book a date with me.. I'm lonely.. =(

2010-10-04T13:27:00.006+08:00

one website I want to avoid is HDB. why? haiz... only God knows.. I worked so hard and save so much for nothing when the other party just spend off the amount for other purposes. Thus, I decided it to be off..

Totally upset with the things that is happening in my life. I have not spoken to anyone yet regarding my problems.. I have kept them to myself.. All I knew I have to make sure my family matters doesn't go beyond the door and things are kept calm. So difficult to let go yet it is even more difficult to stay away from my tears.

I have not cried and I try not to. I have to keep strong!

Bought myself a new purse. For the first time in my life, I bought for myself a purse that's costly! Well, the price comes together with its quality and brand. So its worth paying.. =)

Condition of the previous purse.

Yes.. my bank is $149 lesser..

I'm loving it!

2010-09-29T22:30:00.006+08:00

My hair has been a big disappoint for 23 -7 (years when my hair was soft and smooth) = 16 years! wow... finally, i decided to spend quite an amount for my hair last 2 weeks. For the first time i went to the salon not to cut my hair but gave my hair a makeover.. lol.. i'm so in love with my 'new' hair... hehehe.. Its soft, silky and shiny.. hehehe..

Tomorrow is Children's Day and I will be performing.. i'm so worried i am going to messied up the dance steps... aaauuu... Can't wait for it to be over..!

2010-09-22T23:13:00.003+08:00

Contemplating with my life now.

Its been a hectic 2 days. I didn't have a chance to sit on my desk and complete my work. I'm either having lesson, running some errands around the school or covering someone else's class. The rest of the time is musical rehearsal.

School Musical is going FULL FORCE in this last term. Double headache for me. On top of that, I have to complete the APG design. Been trying to get away with Infocomm but I'm always down alone as she is either away or MC. =(

I need more time in school to do my work!

Wait wait... what day is today? Oh.. its Wednesday.. so its 3 days! haiz.. sorry.. there are so many things to think in my mind.

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I was very very glad to received his msg after 2 days. But when we met, cold treatment was given to me. I was walking with my head down 1.5m behind him. Holding back my tears, I held my head up high. I knew there is a strength in me that no one else could see.
He was right in front of me but he didn't even asked about my situation at home. It just shows how much he must have hated me. Many times when i'm alone I tell myself, "hold on.. hold on.. don't cry.." I don't want to my sisters to ask me. I rather keep it to myself.

Going for my dental appointment next Wednesday. Maybe I should treat myself. I badly need a watch. I have been eyeing at this classic Fossil watch for sometime. ahhh.. just buy it laa.. mmm... ok ok.. manybe next month.. i need to buy my kids their Chidren's Day gift! argh.. 350 pupils.. mmmmmmm... 'terkopak laaa kocek aku bulan depan..'

2010-09-17T11:19:00.002+08:00

Sleepy right now... Yaawwwwnnn...

yeah.. I got free food today because its psle listening comprehension. hehe.. that aside, i have bad headache right now. This must be from yesterday bumpy minivan ride to SIM. When the dizzy wind hits me in the van, i knew i'm going to have sick. i really really don't like the ride.

"Try.. its all we had to do, its up to me and you.. "

2010-09-14T12:15:00.002+08:00

sometime people think you are OK when you are not (at all).

you just have to keep your head up high and make sure your tears would never ever fall. to be strong when you are not, i hate it.

everything hasn't been going on smoothly.
one: been sick for more than 1 week. this has never happen to me. this week is the 3rd week and guess what, i have a sore throat. why am i not fully recovered after weeks of medication.

two: maybe i felt neglected which makes me said that way, thus the other party seems to wrongly interpret it and thinks i'm crazy woman after 6 years.

three: in my school, almost 1/3 of the pupils come from dysfunctional family. they suffered, they cried hard and they are strong enough to move on. Thus, I will be strong too. maybe..

four: money money money.. i save and i spend.. i work so hard for it yet i never feel like i have use it wisely.. hate it..

it takes 2 to tango

2010-06-26T22:33:00.004+08:00

may it be rain or shine, i know you will always be there for me.

love this shot!

things has turn 360degrees. Though life at home doesn't get any better, i'm hoping in the long run, my life would be better(oh.. gonna miss my crazy adiks). Im thankful as I am not sick since the start of the year. Allah has given me good health and hopefully more wealth.. =)

been having bad stomache since the last 2 days.. hate it.. shit it all out and release all the air in my tummy.. but after 6 hours or so, stomache again.. ohh noww!!.. shiot.. bye..!

And i won't make my heart control my head...

2010-05-11T14:33:00.003+08:00

relax... don't explode..

as expected, i'm gonna cry for days.. im not sure till when it will stop but i know for sure i need to strong.

I blame myself for this to happen.

I hate it

2010-05-09T15:06:00.002+08:00

Seriously, i am not the mushy mushy kind of person and for all you know, I don't even celebrate mother's day since the day I was born (maybe.. I don't have any memorises of it). Today is just another day in our life which I don't see the reason for not making it any special unlike other days.

Everyone else is is wishing their mothers and celebrating it... here i am in front of the computer thinking of what do buy for the house. if she is angry as we are not here to celebrate this special day, go ahead. she should know the reasons behind it.

Who hates their mothers? No one wants to do it unless he/she wants to be struck by a lightning. I hate both actions and they makes me crazy. Going back home is not any 'Home sweet home' unless the 3 of us are around together.

We need to protect ourselves from their selfishness.

Somehow I just don't even know them eventhough I lived with them.

2010-05-06T10:52:00.002+08:00

Matlamat hidup: Menjadi orang yang lebih baik di dunia, untuk akhirat.

2010-04-26T21:43:00.003+08:00

how i wish i was lucky.. lucky in every way..

i believe Allah will be with me through thick and thin..

at times, i just dun feel like looking at the faces of selfish people in my family.. i have been trying all ways to keep my head up high and not to shed a single tear..

but these people just like to trigger my anger.. the way they live their life just show how love-less this house is.. dan mangsa nya adalah kita.

i watched so much documentary, real-life story of people living this way.. little would i know this would happen to me.. so much so, that i feel like going home is no different than living a life on my own..

='(

feeling 100 Degrees now..

2010-04-11T20:35:00.003+08:00

OMG.. im feeling really lacked behind..

50% of my polymates (the ones that i know) are in NUS or studying their degree now.. and almost ALL are furthering their studies.. Arrrhhh.. i feel the rush of having a degree..

im thinking if im too simple minded or comfortable that I did not want to further my studies when I have completed my diploma..

I badly want a degree coz I just feel like I have to.. ='( that wrong i know.. haizz..

$$$$$$$$$ is EVIL

evil evil!!

im overload!

2010-02-26T13:50:00.004+08:00

i can't even think straight. There is so much things on hand. and our dear mr faizal is trying to escape. What a weekend to start with.

4 Posters, 1 Banner title, 1 leaflet and a website to take care of.

dear took 2 days leave for his birthday. me? i can't even get my butt off this seat and hands away from this bloody laptop I'm using right now. I badly need to clear Clear CLEAR my work! Deadline is dead but the line is still on. what the hell am i talking about. anyway, all need to be DONE before i step my foot on the school ground next week.

Teacher's survival kit

2010-02-15T07:29:00.003+08:00

Read one of my friend's note in facebook. Interesting. Close to my heart. Every teacher needs this survival kit in them. Might need to top up at the start of each school day or he/she will be exploded, inside.

Teacher's survival kit

Prayer book - for you to say at the start of each day

Toothpick - to help you "pick" out the good qualities in others and yourself

Crayon - to color you day bright and cheerful

Hugs and Kisses - for when you need a hug

Candle - when you're up late grading papers

Eraser - to remind you everyone makes mistakes

Rubberband - to remind you to be flexible and try to work on "win-win" situations

String - to ties things together when everything falls apart

Pencil - to "write your wrongs"

Lifesaver candy - you are a lifesaver to many of your students

Paperclip - to hold it all together

May Allah ease your tasks and increase u in patience and taqwa. Amin ya Rabb!!!

I dun wan March to come.. go away..

2010-02-07T23:01:00.002+08:00

I am not sure if its because I did not grow in size after leaving high school which makes me feel this way..

23?? like oh noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...
I am feeling so old and lousy..

I am still 43kg after 6 years.. like wth!! how i wish i was 50kg..
i wonder how it feels like..

I have a few things in mind for this year.. hopefully it goes well..

for once, i thought of dating a cute, korean/chinese guy..
well, that will never ever happen.. =(

2010-01-26T21:56:00.002+08:00

any idea what i should get for my dear birthday..

i remember i did not even celebrate his birthday last year..
what kind of gf am i maaaaannn!!!
lol.. dun even bother about his birthday..
so this year must give him something..

i have already thou of the other things than his present itself..

you!.. if you are reading this... What do you want for your birthday?

Facebook updates

2010-01-24T20:00:00.002+08:00

facebook photo updates:

'masyaAllah..! dia gi Eygpt dengan kawan2 dia..'
'subahanaAllah..! dia pula dapat gi Italy dgn kakak2 dia..'
'waa..! dan dia pula gi USA..'

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when i lift up my head from the screen... and me? in Singapore...
=(

bila agaknya Allah beri jalan dan peluang tuk diri ini pergi pelancong..

Ya Allah... murahkanlah rezeki ku......

amin...

2010-01-15T07:59:00.003+08:00

manager coming today to help out in my AR.

dun noe who complaint.

its kinda sad to see someone with the rank of senior, was only nice to you for first 2 emails and dun bother about you soon after. mcm tu le jadi mentor. ish3.

anyway, i have removed her.

they

2010-01-13T11:14:00.001+08:00

they thought I have nothing else to do than the things they want me to do.

hate it.

what?

2010-01-11T20:49:00.003+08:00

yaa.. what?

As you can see, life in school has been crazy as it can be. workload don't just piled up but they come together in groups of 2 or 3 automatically. don't understand? nevermind. haha..

so much so I want to push them away, seconds later, a tsunami will come from behind to drown me. -.- sh*t!

people will say, "no one wants to do shitty work except me" (shitty work means simple task but overloads you.)

Let's be positive alittle as say, "its a responsibility with no choice given" lol..

talking about responsibility, i have taken photos of 300+ students from P1 to P3 last week. And I need to edit them all by end of this week. *faint -.0 (anyone, box my face please, i want to faint...)

as usual, i will go crazy when I'm alone..

I am yet to learn about DSLR Camera from our school pro.

I did not fix this. Mr Teo, our school OM adjusted it for me. I don't really know why its too long with its extension but what ever it is, its a Great experience with such xxxxxpensive camera..

thinking of dyeing my hair..

2010-01-03T17:34:00.003+08:00

in denial state.. totally..!

Tomorrow will be the start of 2010 roller coaster ride. Anyone wanne ride with me? I'm pretty sure, the school timetable will be a mess, everyone hates. lol.. =p

I'm in full force to achieve my 2011 mission. hopefully, Allah will guide me through the tough times. Well, I'm already having a tough time at home and school. =(

sometime in life, u just have to be an actor.
Act like nothing happen.
Act like it doesn't happen to you
and no matter how much you hate it, u have to bear with it..

title and post not related.. lol.. should i dye my hair..? or maybe rebond them..

1.. 2.. 3..

2010-01-01T00:08:00.003+08:00

This is the 123th post.

1: Happy New Year. 2010. (school reopen, holiday ends.. sh*t)

2: Happy 5th Anniversary to us! Weee.. 50 more years to come! InsyaAllah

3: Hoping for lots of miracle to happen in 2010.

thatz all..

so what am i doing on my first day of 2010? finishing up my work.. sigh...

If your ex-girlfriend calls you...

2009-12-23T21:47:00.001+08:00

different reaction from all 5 guys.. I love the 2nd and last one.. =p

empty..

2009-12-14T14:18:00.001+08:00

i regret not giving him things that he likes.

stopid me..

selfish. hatemyself

buckets of tears

2009-12-14T12:50:00.007+08:00

its difficult to accept a second failure.

im upset with myself.
there must be something wrong with me.

i must have push him too hard.
im disappointed with myself.

i have let myself down.
ihatemyself.

hopefully, he will find someone better than me. someone who can take good care of him. someone who loves him more than i do. someone who understands him much better than me. someone who can bring happines and joy in his life.

make or break?

2009-12-13T21:05:00.003+08:00

either break down or become stronger.

only the mind can control.

little did i know, one conversation could change one's mind.
and the change is heartbreaking.

Flower perrrrliisss

2009-12-12T17:14:00.003+08:00

Something just can to my mind. And I need to say it before I forget..

The begger (me): on our anniversary kan, you give me bouquet of flowers laa.. or just one stalk of flower if you really lazy.. =.- can ahh.. can ahh..
dear: ah..
the begger: bole ahh.. please... u never even give me 1 sey!!!
dear: aahh..
the begger: I see my friends getting flowers on special occasion, I satu pun tak dapat.
dear: nanti i kasi u banyak-banyak ok..
the begger: tak dapat ah tu... haizz ape laa nasib.. =(
dear: (i know he's smiling inside)
me: (kurang asem!!)

1.. 2.. 3.. 4..? Hi 5!

2009-12-12T16:53:00.004+08:00

End of the year is the time of the year. 4 was over. here comes 5. somehow we just dun really know what to do on that day. we have no idea at ALL! really!

When i asked him,

me: so what are we gonna do on our 5?
dear: i dun know. what do you want to do?
me: eat? or maybe we go somewhere.. like theme park?
dear: we are done with that. where else have we not done yet?
me: *thinking hard.. (theme park: yes.. WWW:yes... bowling:yes... movies?:yes of coz.. dinner at restaurant?:yes.. beach: yes... what else ah..?)

suddenly...........

dear: what if I propose you on that day?
me: -.-" thatz not special at all
dear: hahahaha.. okey wat.. I kan sweet per..
me: ya right! your head lah sweet. you're telling me you gonna propose me on that day. da tak payah...

Da sampai da..

2009-12-08T10:41:00.003+08:00

the clothes i ordered has arrived! yaahhooo.. best nya!

throw away my old, worn out clothes..

"Bergaya lah tahun baru anda dengan baju baru!"

haha..

tudungless

2009-12-01T12:47:00.004+08:00

I wonder how it feels like not to wear tudung when going out.

Dye my hair blonde, straighten my hair.
Shiny low cut spag top with biker's jacket.
Red checkered short skirt with high socks.

Fuh.. terus masuk club..

balik kena sepak agaknya..

tak dapat lah pakai mcm tu..
tapi kalu satu hari, i become wild..
apa pandangan orang agaknya..

i'm your man.. (no more)

2009-11-30T09:46:00.005+08:00

Cute Guys + Cute dance move + catchy song = I Loike!

SS501 - Love like this.

There is so much to celebrate this year!

I finally bought myself a PORTABLE HARD DISK!.. yeaaa.. Sitex IT fair is right on time, baby!

Now, I badly need a(nother) new shoe or I will be wearing the same shoe everyday to work. -.0

Dear has been very patience with my nonsense and accompanied me through out my whinning times.

I'm happy like that. But I'm happier if its better. =)

taken just minutes after we left Mount E.
Official date: 26/Nov/2009 = Braces is ON.

Work has been crazy.. I keep bring back my laptop home. there must be sumting wrong with me! I need to clear the mountains right now!

Alhamdulillah

2009-11-24T19:15:00.007+08:00

This year has been a roller coaster ride for me. Thankfully, I still managed to achieve my ambition for this year.

No. 1: Praises to God as I had a wonderful Ramadan. I managed to fast for a month hence, I'm able to do my tarawih much more than the previous years. Hopefully, it will be even better next year.

No. 2: Came back from work one day and read the newspaper. Saw the advertisement on Korban 2009. Thought about it for some time. Well, I don't come from a wealthy family. I believe my parents have not done 'korban' for me. and oh my twin sisters too. So we decided to take out part of our savings and Go for it this year!
InsyaAllah, kalau ada rezeki dan masa, we will do it again. Its for our future. =)

No. 3: After stepping into the job for 1 month, I have thoughts of quiting. the workload will never subside.. ada jer nak kena buat. Weeks after weeks... deadlines after deadlines.. I somehow like what I am doing. It makes me elated inside to see the kids, able to execute what I have taught them. And of coz, making me cards.. lol.. Though I met them once a week, I am thankful they remember me. especially the P1s, they make you feels like a celebrity. "Ms CT.. Ms Siti.... Ms siti.." hahaha...

N0. 4: Gadget..! I have been eyeing for Samsung YP-P3 for a very long time. Bought it as an advance birthday gift for myself. Plus, I was given 20% off for all they products on my birthday month becoz previously i bought for my sisters an MP3 and I registered their warranty under my name thus, i became a member! Terus beli babe.. tak fikir dua kali pun.. hehe..

No. 5: This is the BIGEST INVESTMENT i ever made in my life. Cost me $4000 plus plus.. Like what I have said to Ting zhen before and I'm gonna said it back to myself. Wallau.. I can buy laptop, Macbook, Gucci, LV, Burberry or Prada..! hahaha.. But this investment, will change my life! =)

for the better

2009-11-05T23:13:00.004+08:00

aaarrrr.... *sob *sob.. i have not been whining for quite some time.. and now might be the best moment to whine out loud..
its pain in here.. and
its pain in there..
i feel like taking them out..
really.. i can't even bite. now i realised why Ting Zhen never finish her meal and has no appetite on some days..

i miss her..

i miss whining to her..

and hearing her say,

"CT, please shut up!"

hahaha...

2009-10-30T14:16:00.005+08:00

Do you ever felt like not doing anything than daze.. Lesson after lesson, it just drained me. every single energy i have in me, has dried out. now back in the office, i jus dun feel like doing my work. I wan to go home! yes, i wanne go home. im so tired. ='(

By the way,

how can they have such event without telling me??? I was waiting for korean artist concert for a very long time. Previously, they have something like these last year at Indoor Stadium. I didn't know about it too until I watch the repeat telecast at MTV. So coming December, they have Seoul'd out 2009 at Fort Canning Park. Brown Eyed Girls (famous for their hip moves) and FT-Island are those I wanne meet. But too bad, I'm tied with lots of things end of the year. I can't spend $$$$ on concert or events anymore.. =( I hope they have these again next year.. Bring in 2NE1, 2PM and Lee Seung gi maybe? ohh.. Lee Seung gi...... hehehehe...

2009-10-27T21:37:00.006+08:00

i think its time for me to do something about my skin.. i have not been taking good care of them.. haizz.. $$$$$ *flying..
No! i must think positive! this is an investment for the future.. =D

18 October 2009, Sunday
I have said this many times but i'm gonna said it again..
Simfoni Filem Nusantara Gerek!!! can i give 10x100%??

From start till it ends, was 10 fingers Up! I love the music.. the drama and comedy by Sani Hussein and Cik Leh.. the transition from one era to another was smooth... The clothes was pretty.. And Hariani's voice is sweet! How I wish I could sing.. can i, ting zhen? lol..

I didn't know a quick decision would give a great impact.

i must be tasty.. yum yum..

we were sitting separately.. sad right? But thatz okey.. we were the first few to get the autograph!! after the whole thing ends, we ran to queue for autograph session...lol.. in 10 minutes, snake queue behind us..

we were very thankful to be sitted near the steps and of coz, The Door.. lol..

Look at how near we are..

Its okay Marina, I'm sure you will there's a time, you will get to meet Taufik face2face and get his autograph.

2009-10-25T00:20:00.005+08:00

looking at her 19th birthday celebration.. wwwooooo... i dun even remember celebrating my teens years with family and friends.. Buffet spread, 2.5kg chocolate cake, door gifts.. mmm.. what about mine?

Sweet 16 or 17th birthday? 21th birthday? haizz... none.. what about surprise birthday? dun ever think about it. i remember that my birthday is just another day in my life. nothing special.

I envy the closest person around me..... dear. Yes! His family never once forgotten to celebrate his birthday. I remember every year i'm with him, his family would either booked a chalet or bbq pit or even cooked at home and called all their relatives to come and celebrate his birthday. What a star he is?

Every time when his birthday nears, i would quarel with him. I don't know why but I guess I'm just jealous. hhmm..

And here comes 23. Just another number added to my age. For those who are still 21 this year and not reached 22 due to birthday at the end of the year.. haizzz.. what a gift.

So what has Siti Hajar Binte Ismail achieved in her 22 years of living in this world? NONE!

Highest education? Diploma (not sure if i could still absorb more)
Employed (but not sure)
Not that religious enough for me
Has not bought herself clothes cost more than $25
The most expensive shoes she bought? $45 (thatz on sale: 60% off)
The most expensive bag she bought? $35 (and thatz was 4 years ago)
The most expensive item she bought for herself? $290 (Samsung YP-P3) Her own birthday gift.

She must be crazy.. yup... I have spend most of my $$ on my niece and nephew, and also buying foods to my family.. Those who have seen me at supermarket for hours and carrying so much things. Yes.. I would rather starve than seeing my family hungry.. Well, most of the time my appetite is low.. and im just.........aaaaahhhaaiizzz.. its so difficult to explain..

Never in my life.. not even once.. I want to be in this state.. skinny.. Think that I wasn't feed well? My Mom, Dad, Brother, Sisters are all normal. I'm the only one in this state.

No one knows how depressed I was. Everyone that sees me will say the same thing. I just laughed it off with a smile. From family, friends, colleagues to strangers. Everyone says the same thing. "Why are you so thin/skinny?" and of coz for some, "eeeeeee.."

I remembered when I was in primary school. The boys and some girls in my class would tease me, call me names. Everyday in school without fail. "Siti Gajah (elephant)" "Siti Kurang Ajar (not been taught well)" and a whole lot more.. And I recalled every morning and afternoon bathe, I would sit in the toilet for more than 1/2 an hour just thinking why am I being treated this way. Why are they so mean to me. And from then onwards. I just dun wan to make any friends. I believe friends will never be there for you. They only tease you and make you cry. ='(

I really envy the people around me having lots of friends, good friends, best friends. Reading and watching them taking photos, meetups.. Everyone else is lucky except me..

2009-10-08T21:22:00.005+08:00

Found these photos in my computer.. don't remember when my sister took it..

Work has been double crazy than before.. I'm not sure if its all becoz I am doing Faizal's part for now or the time-killer banded remedial every week which makes me looks too hardworking and i keep being the last one standing in the staffroom.. Cannot cannot.. so not me.. =p

Anyway, hopefully I don't have anything much tomorrow and I can finish my assignments on time.

Oh oh oh.. why am i hearing people leaving from the company? My manager cum tour guide, is leaving this week and she's leaving Singapore for AUSTRALIA!!! aaaahhh.. (dear take note plz..) coz her husband got a job there! I'm happy for her yet I'm sad she's leaving... Good people leaves first... =p

aahhh.. back to work now..

2009-10-07T23:41:00.003+08:00

*sob.. sob.. a heartbreaking news.. Kampung Siglap Mosque on fire!

i cried when i heard about this. how and what actually happen? Ya Allah.. Alhamdullilah, I did went there for prayers a few times with dear.. I remember how calm and cozy the place is.. Hopefully, they can rebuild Siglap Mosque back exactly like it has been before.. Amin..

2009-10-01T20:32:00.001+08:00

"Sama-sama maju ke hadapan...
pandai cari, pelajaran..
Jaga diri dalam kesihatan
serta sopan santun
dengan kawan-kawan..."

Remember this song we used to sing when we were in primary school. Every Children's Day, they never fail to play this song which is to be sang either before or after the Children's Day Concert. After so many years, I heard them again yesterday. It just bring back good memories. I still kept little gifts given by my form teacher. Because I know I will missed her, I kept them well in my Memory Box. aahhh..

Back to reality! I bought little gifts for my students. P1, P2 and P3. Though at times, they make me scream till I almost lost my voice.. I know deeeep inside, they don't even think that they are wrong.. lol.. come on.. lets face it.. we have been there and done before.. Kena stand for 1 whole period because too noisy or never do correction but after the teacher leave the class, everyone just forgets about it.. hahaha.. Right?

For P1 and 2, i gave them pencils. P3, I gave them file. Thank god, there's only 4 classes each level, i can't imagine how big the hole in my pockets will be if I have 6 or 8 classes per level.. fuhh... the kids love it..

Surprisingly, there is one little P1 girl gave me a Ferrero Roche when I gave out the pencils to the class.
"Ms Siti, this is for you!" aawww..... so sweet kan!!!!
Tanda terima kasih atas memberi dia pensel...

2009-09-30T18:40:00.005+08:00

i promised to put up photos of the card i received like a month ago.... zzzzzz... yes.. i know its dusty but somehow its not coz I received another Teachers' Day card from another student. He must have loved me.. muahahaha.. anyway.. let's see the 'love notes' they have wriiten for me.. hehehe..

Miis Siti? its okay.. he's only P2.. hehe..

Inside the card..wooo.. loads of hearts.. hehe..

it says here, "Happy Teachers' Day, Teacher(Cikgu) Siti"

And the msg says.. (Direct translation: Malay to English)
"Happy Teachers' Day, Teacher Siti. Teacher, this card is for you. Teacher, you must be healthy(well) always. Happy Teachers' Day, Teacher. Bye bye.. Muhammad Shafiq." Isn't it cute! gosh!!

2009-09-27T21:04:00.002+08:00

Dear's last Leave day..

We know its Sunday, we know its the second week of Raya and we know we should either stay at home or go out for visiting with families.. But guess where we are..

There's no way we can go KLCC together,
SunTec CiTy pun jadi laa..

Pose mcm budak2..

We used the time we have to find gifts for my students and also buy my necessity items..

Fountain of Wealth give me lots of wealth!!! muahaha..

We had not went out on Sunday dates for a very very long time.. Talking about Suntec City? We don't even remember the last time we went there.. mm.. i wonder when is the next time.

2009-09-11T14:33:00.002+08:00

I had never watch a concert with a kickoff Party Dance like this before.. Its so cool!!! I'm not sure if they practise it before the concert starts. Everyone Must Watch!!!

Oprah's Kickoff Party Dance

2009-08-31T13:27:00.002+08:00

My 100th Post.

Today is Eve of Teachers' Day. I'm not a teacher obviously but..........................

I received a Teachers' Day card from a boy named Mohammad Shafiq!!! I'm totally speechless and overwhelmed. I have not taken a picture of it. Will upload it when I reached home. Tonight, there is a Teachers' Day Dinner at Park Royal. Attendance? COMPULSORY. Damn it! I thought I could give it a miss. haizz.. The theme is Career Switch. I have less than 5 hours to think of what to wear later on. Oh God!

2009-08-30T13:43:00.000+08:00

i hate this job...

i hate this job..

i hate this job..

Aaarrrrgghhhhhhhhhhh.............

2009-08-26T12:01:00.003+08:00

Heard the controversy about Ustaz Akil Hayy and Waheeda?

Mati2 nafi tak ada hubungan tapi akhirnya nikah juga. Ape jer.... I read their story online just now.. They make me damn angry. There is so much to be angry about too with them.
No. 1: How could he get married after 1 month he divorced from his ex-wife.
No. 2: Nama je Ustaz, he left his ex-wife(when they were still together previously) more than 3 months without any news.
No. 3: He has 6 children wif his ex-wife! Go and be responsible la..!!!!

Look at this photo, no one in the picture is smiling except them. they deserved it!

Marrying a divorced man must be a trend in Malaysian Celebrities. Don't you think so?
- Siti Nurhaliza and Dato' K (divorced with 4 kids)
- Ning Baizura and Omar Sharif (divorced with 2 kids)
There are more but these are the obvious..

2009-08-23T23:38:00.001+08:00

Tickling Nose Game...? who would ever thought of such game!! boys will always be boys..

This is so funny.. I can't helped laughing at their facial expression.. Trying to maintain the ticklish feeling and the attacker wanting to make the opponent lose.... haha.. this is so crap.

Reminder: Lee Seung-ki is my scandal! =p

2009-08-21T15:04:00.002+08:00

im down with flu for 2 days and i had a hard time breathing. bloody flu bugs. where the hell you come from? anyway, since i started working in ecps, i have been sick.

one stress and confuse day, i smsed my bf..
me: i cannot take it. i just came back from the vp room. more and new things to do. die die.. i have not even completed my lesson plan.

dear: syg, i think u cannot cope wif stress. Just quit and find a new job!

me: wat? i just worked for 3 weeks and you are asking me to quit?

dear: YA! coz you keep complaining.

me: -.= (kill me plz..)

I guess the problem wif me is I can't manage the things I need to do. There is so many things on hand and all of them need Hours and Days to do. I don't know which one to do first. Kill me.. I miss my admin job. hahaha..

Hot News I received yesterday!!! The new ccpe which replace my replacement. (im not sure if you understand this..) She resigned! according to my trusted sources, she fought with Mrs Yap becoz of her high absent rate.. haizz... Im wondering how Mrs Jeannie Tan is. Hopefully, she will get a better replacement.

2009-08-14T08:22:00.003+08:00

This is kind of late but its never too late.

Mr Faizal is infected by me! lol. According to Susan(the school CSO) He came to school on Tuesday(Monday is National Day holiday) but was down with high fever 39.2 degrees! =p He was asked to go clinic and he was given 6 days MC. He will only be back next week. As good as he did not came this whole week.

Maybe the flu bug went to him. haha.. Sorry Faizal. I was down with fever, cough and flu last week. And was given 4 days MC. Came back on Friday 7 Aug 09, Mr Faizal was the first one I met in school, asking me how I was that day. (guess what? I was still having cough and alittle flu).

Now, they have to believe that I am totally sick that week coz Faizal is infected. hahahaha..... Oopsss...

2009-07-30T08:17:00.002+08:00

im not feeling good today.

3 unexpected things happen in just 10mins when i reached work today.

No.1 - 'you need to train the teachers in MS Excel in the next 2 weeks'
No.2 - the laptop went into the deadly Blue Screen!!!
And lastly, u need to sit in for Infocomm Club today coz he has contact time with the teachers.

Anyone has chopper? Please cut me into pieces!

For the last 3 days, my time after curriculum hours has been used up for Remedials and CCA. Why can't they just leave me alone! Monday was the most unusual day for me coz I almost lost my voice after shouting at the remedial students. They cant keep their mouth shut and I cant continue. Thank God there are some nice souls in the class, they listened and pay attention.

why.. why... why.....!!!

2009-07-27T21:11:00.002+08:00

A Wedding Entrance you will NEVER ever thought of doing it! Damn creative and memorable!

JK Wedding Entrance

2009-07-17T21:19:00.006+08:00

I thought 13 members in a boy band is too much. Not until you watch this...

Sorry Sorry - Super Junior

Guess what? These inmates in Philippines have dance training twice a day, 7 days a week! Quite a number of them can really dance very very well!!! Oh ya, they will actually perform for their family/ visitors once a month. I watched a documentary about this. Previously, there were gangsters and drug dealers in the cell. Now, they become Friends and help one another...

Madonna song suddenly struck me.... 'Music makes the people come together(yeah)'

2009-07-10T12:02:00.004+08:00

Hari Jumaat hari mulia,
Hari Jumaat ku dapat kerja!!!

Aaaarrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhh..................................!!!

*calm down.. calm down...

Alhamdulillah.. the school is walking distance and its directly in front of my Twin Sisters' school. Now I can watch them..!! hahaha.. Don't think you can hide from me.. muahaha.. ok thatz not the point.. Im starting next week.. damn.. yaaawwwnnnnn... i cant woke up late like i used to for the past 4 weeks.. and i also have not done with my korean dramas yet.. sheeettt...

Dear was right,
*== (is equal to)

No Work == No $$$
No $$$ == No Transport$$ = No Shopping = No new Things = no no noooooo.....
Thank you dear for bugging me to get a job asap eventhough most of the time I'm idling at home playing Mafia Wars... haha.. plus your endless prayer for me.. =p

I can't believe that Im going to teach! TEACH..! aarrgghh.. I hope I can go through the upcoming hard times and be a better person. Please guide me through and teach me. Thank you!

Shout Out to my dearest TingZhen! I miss ya gal! Hope you r doing fine now. Babe, I miss our crappy stories and our wild imagination when we NEED to kill our boredom and s**ky life there.. hahaha...

Shout out to my nonsentical Sisters. Happy 16th Birthday!! May you Pass ur Exams with Rainbow Colours. STOP failing laaa deeehhh....!! *slap their heads..
To our neighbours: On behalf of my sisters, just for today ONLY I would like to apologise if you have heard 2 girls screaming, shouting, running from the living room to kitchen and slamming of doors, talking till late night, thatz them. They will never stop fighting and............... talking.

Even our nieces think that too.. Look at their faces..
By the way, the baju kurung they wore in the picture is Mine!
Adik, do your best in studies and dun forget to buy me bubble tea.. Thanks eh... hehe...

2009-07-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

Dear: I have a job for you tomorrow morning!

And i thought he wants me to cook or do some errands on lazy Sunday morning. It was just accompanying him to an Adidas Sale at Expo. ceyyy... The sale wasn't any great like the previous one which we need to line up to enter. Its just a small sale area. Most of the clothing were made from Korea. And i didnt expect to see winter jackets but its really nice!! If only Singapore have 4 seasons..

We didnt stay long so we decided to fill our empty buckets at Banquet Simei. After which, we walk walk and saw cheap watches.. And we accidently bought a New and Cheaper sets of Couple Watch.. =p No la, blame me for losing the previous watch. Dear thinks that we should have a new one. Furthermore, his previous watch spoiled! =)

"wait wait..."

I love this photo of our new watch! And its only $7.20 for 2!!! And we called it our working watches (Jam tuk kerja)!

Good bye to our old watches..